“I’ve been thinking a lot recently about the balance of masculine and feminine, how I have both inside me and how they battle to lead.
I say battle because I don’t feel like they want to work together, often I feel that I am too much of one or the other, that I should be more of something else.
Sometimes I feel like I cry too often or too easily and other times I feel like I lack softness, have too much edge going on, a rigidness that is both harsh and strong.
I know a lot of it has more to do with my need to fit in and less to do with thinking I’m doing something wrong. And I’m working on that, rationally I know it’s the media and messaging I receive that makes me feel this way – that it’s not my truth, but it’s hard to be rational when it triggers old patterns and feeling about not being worthy, not being enough and feeling like I lack something essential.
Have you ever felt the same?
Silly Billy Caitlin sometimes feels that having short hair or getting a fade at the barbers makes her too masculine.
It’s a ridiculous thought because I look awesome with short hair and I love going to the barber. And yet it’s there at the back of my mind almost everyday.
This gorgeous shot was taken by Marina @boutiquemelbournestudiosshe’s captured both sides of me, I feel so soft and sexy looking at this image. But I also feel strong, powerful and courageous. It’s a beautiful balance and reminder that I need both.”